Always Thinking
Sometimes I get worried thinking about my 30-year old brother, CJ. I think of how our parents are getting older. I think about where he can get help since he is not in school. I think of what he needs to be healthy. I think of how people treat him.
All of this thinking takes me down a path of questions with no end.
What If…
What if something bad happens to my parents? 
What if my parents’ health gets worse?
What if my mom can’t care for my brother CJ anymore?
What if my dad can no longer work and provide for the family?
What if CJ does not get the help he needs?
What if I have to stop working to care for CJ?
What if CJ gets upset because he can’t express his feelings?
What if he hurts himself again?
What if something bad happens to CJ because people are afraid of him?
What if someone calls the police on him again?
What if something bad happens to CJ because people are afraid of him?
What if someone calls the police on him again?
What if they put him in the hospital again?
What if they give him drugs to make him sleep again?